I really will snap anytime. I'm serious. I'm feeling it again. Whatever I do, I'll feel very depress all the same.
First of all, my results. It is not satisfactory. And I only have myself to blame. Why am I such an idiot? They are all very bad. Why?
Secondly, there's this announcement of probation at last. A friend applied and got it. I want to be okay with it. My consciousness is fine with what is going on. But, no, I can't. Subconsciously, I'm feeling otherwise. And the feeling is not so good. Jealous? No, I hope not. I really do not wish that. But the fact really pains me. I already know the outcome. It pains me. Pain.
Lastly for today, I tried participating a game. I really hope it will turn out well. I ain't sporty yet I still wish I would just play something nicely for once. This is all so depressing. I got it the final round and that comforts me a little. Still, I'm at the brink of snapping again.
I just felt alone. I'm lonely. Can anybody understand that?
I'm just lonely.
Really lonely.
First of all, my results. It is not satisfactory. And I only have myself to blame. Why am I such an idiot? They are all very bad. Why?
Secondly, there's this announcement of probation at last. A friend applied and got it. I want to be okay with it. My consciousness is fine with what is going on. But, no, I can't. Subconsciously, I'm feeling otherwise. And the feeling is not so good. Jealous? No, I hope not. I really do not wish that. But the fact really pains me. I already know the outcome. It pains me. Pain.
Lastly for today, I tried participating a game. I really hope it will turn out well. I ain't sporty yet I still wish I would just play something nicely for once. This is all so depressing. I got it the final round and that comforts me a little. Still, I'm at the brink of snapping again.
I just felt alone. I'm lonely. Can anybody understand that?
I'm just lonely.
Really lonely.
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