himegoto 17

Hey, it's already the 31st of January. Oh my, I'm so getting a heart attack.. Why must time "flies" so fast, can't you be patient and kindly wait up for some people - namely me. I haven't been able to get any good sleep lately, one of the reasons being I just couldn't get myself to doze off earlier in bed. Am I getting his "disease" now? I hope not, so hope not... If this is the truth, he is to be blamed for. Be warned - well, that is if he has the chance to read this, which I totally think not.


So, I went to the clubhouse today, a plan to go for swimming lesson actually. Most unfortunately, the trainer wasn't free that day and had a replacement teacher instead. Thus, I didn't get to speak to that trainer about how I wanna join the class.. But, oh my, most of the students are kids... I'm like woa... Is this even right?? I'm so not encouraged now... Might change my mind, but the thing is I have to learn how to swim properly and "efficiently" before prefect's camp which will be around in June or July... AND, it was said that we will need to swim 60 LAPS for our test. Yes, it also includes life-saving techniques and CPR. I'm so not prepare... So under pressure...... Why of all things.... Why? WHY???

I read a blog just now, it was by a teacher in my school. Indeed it was interesting. One can see that she's really making an effort. That did ended my doubts that I had beforehand. Anyone would have questions in their head if you understand what's going on. I wouldn't elaborate on the topic here, it's hard to say if anybody who knows me chance to meet my blog... That's dangerous. I would like to remain anonymous and mysterious, if the fate will let me be please... If you are curious, I would "wilt and die away" should anyone that knew me saw this. This is something private which I kept to myself and myself alone. Notice that I avoid putting in somebody else's name here, it's simply too risky...

Anyway, dad bought new tables and shelves for our comfort. Well yeah, sure it's nice! I'm usin the new furniture now if you need to know. Haha~ I love the arrangement though it's kinda packed, nevertheless, new things are nice~ I could place my dear computer in a more organized way and I like it. I get to put the CPU up on the table like I wished for a long time ago. You mustn't say anything!! Espcially since one side of my CPU was transparent and now that I could see what's inside th CPU all the time is actually a sweet thing..Talk about closure, I love my PC even more now.. They are just too wonderful. Staying away from them for even a second is not considerable, that's jsut awful treatment to my PC. No way~

Yeah, it's the last day of the first month of the new year of 2007. How do you feel? How do I feel?? Well, nothing. It's kinda okay as time passes. I'm getting more and more comfortable in the new class now though I still have a feeling that I'm being very outcasted. However, I don't care and I don't want to care. Just let it be and be it a challenge for me. Hey, I'm aiming to et a job in relation to the field of psychology/philosophy. These two subjects are just my stuff, no others please. I believe in putting myself in situations so that I can understand the others and be able to help them. I really wish I could be everybody's angel and warmth. Their Sun. I love he sunrays, I really do. I don't mind them burning me. It gives me the radiant. I truly loves it.

Lastly, this will be d last post for this month. (Hey, it IS th last day of January 2007 after all...) So, I fulfilled my promise to post 10 posts each month. Yep, 10 and I just did it when I clicked the publish button. I'm so proud of myself. Happy holiday tomorow aka Thaipusam celebration. When I get my own vehicle, I want to go everywhere snapping pictures and be inspired..

Here I rest my pace.