Second post in this three-post-marathon. Dramatic. Stupid.
They've gone to that place without me yesterday. Argh, if only I didn't say "no" the other day. I would be joining them in their fun-filled journey. I wished something like that but I didn't grasp my opportunity well. I let it slipped by my clutch. I'm s stupid. Even though I should concentrate on my studies, I find that, I still need some warmth from companionship. I'm seriously lack of that.
The fact that I am lack of just that made me a cold-blooded animal. In mandarin context, people would call me as The Princess of The Ice Mountain. Writing that in mandarin would be a lot more shorter, which is a great reason I don't really like th language English. Mandarin gives me more warmth than that I ever needed. English will never achieve that. I love nature. And the Chinese language is very well associated to nature. I love nature.
Am I half mad or what? I really don't get it anymore. I'm so unlike myself. Myself like last time. Very different.
I guessed it really was a bad decision to transfer to this new school. It let me into a different environment, true enough. However, what has it make me into? It has make into a lunatic fit enough to stay in a home together with those mentally challenged people. Sounds nice. Seriously, I don't know anything anymore. And I know very well that there is no more turning back for my case.
Unless some miracle happen. I'll always be like this now. The only other easy option is a bad one - to snap and go crazy.
I need more light. Can all of you give me that?
They've gone to that place without me yesterday. Argh, if only I didn't say "no" the other day. I would be joining them in their fun-filled journey. I wished something like that but I didn't grasp my opportunity well. I let it slipped by my clutch. I'm s stupid. Even though I should concentrate on my studies, I find that, I still need some warmth from companionship. I'm seriously lack of that.
The fact that I am lack of just that made me a cold-blooded animal. In mandarin context, people would call me as The Princess of The Ice Mountain. Writing that in mandarin would be a lot more shorter, which is a great reason I don't really like th language English. Mandarin gives me more warmth than that I ever needed. English will never achieve that. I love nature. And the Chinese language is very well associated to nature. I love nature.
Am I half mad or what? I really don't get it anymore. I'm so unlike myself. Myself like last time. Very different.
I guessed it really was a bad decision to transfer to this new school. It let me into a different environment, true enough. However, what has it make me into? It has make into a lunatic fit enough to stay in a home together with those mentally challenged people. Sounds nice. Seriously, I don't know anything anymore. And I know very well that there is no more turning back for my case.
Unless some miracle happen. I'll always be like this now. The only other easy option is a bad one - to snap and go crazy.
I need more light. Can all of you give me that?
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