It was Valentine's Day yesterday..
Woa... Everybody was rich and generous that day, seeming they spent so much on flowers that will not last long and will wilt in a matter of days.
Truthfully, I felt sorry for the flowers. The more I looked at them, the more depressed I got. I did get a sunflower from a friend. The other gifts I got were candies, chocolates and some notes (better then nothing I suppose).
The sunflower, after I got home, ended up missing..
Well, even though I felt sorry for it, I didn't really care much about it either. What hypocrisy... I was depressed, let me reaffirm you. To the extent that I just put a dropped sunflower petal in my mouth and started chewing. I spat it out after a few minutes. It was bitter yet there's still its scent there. Though I'm not sure if that really was the flower scent or something else, namely insect spray...But, I didn't mind and didn't care.
The flowers, I rather had them planted on ground among the rich soil where they really should be. Some didn't have the chance to bloom fully but had to be cut off its stem to be presented to somebody else - supposingly to make them happy. True enough, the flowers had spread happiness in the world, but they weren't really appreciated still. They were chucked one side when they were done, if you get what I meant. They were merely a symbol in a solid state where humans showed their affection towards another being. However, I still think it's too cruel for the flowers... It's just the spur of a moment happiness and all was gone and forgotten already. Wouldn't it be better if they are just planted in a pot, so that they can continue growing?
Yes, the flowers did play their part well thus I respected them. We are all living things. We had this mutual relationship that we musn't deny. Living things have their own life as we homo sapiens do. Why not some other way when it's Valentine's Day?
In the end, I might just conclude that I'm actually jealous. But, I really hope this was not the source for the above babbling. If it was, I would slap myself. You see, some girls just weren't tired of receiving more and more flowers every single minute - they could managed a bucket full of roses... What's more, some conveyed their dislikes towards me through a rather intentional-not-accidental-practical mean... I was hurt. Rather. My friend suggested that it was really harsh. So I thought. I'm still a being myself. I still have enough sense in myself to not turn into some cold-blooded animal. If I were to turn into such, it would be bad. My state would somehow reflect your ownself. It's not like I bear a grudge with you people. Can't you people see how that this is me, myself and I? This is the way I am. Don't jump to conclusions before you even start to decipher me. By all means, I was always easily bullied all the time. So, how am I supposingly snobbish, aroggant or whatever you might have to say about me??
I really don't understand. Why could I tolerate the others with so much patience and understanding, yet the other side wouldn't seem to open up anytime soon. I'm fed up with this.
Let what will be, be whatever it will be.
Woa... Everybody was rich and generous that day, seeming they spent so much on flowers that will not last long and will wilt in a matter of days.
Truthfully, I felt sorry for the flowers. The more I looked at them, the more depressed I got. I did get a sunflower from a friend. The other gifts I got were candies, chocolates and some notes (better then nothing I suppose).
The sunflower, after I got home, ended up missing..
Well, even though I felt sorry for it, I didn't really care much about it either. What hypocrisy... I was depressed, let me reaffirm you. To the extent that I just put a dropped sunflower petal in my mouth and started chewing. I spat it out after a few minutes. It was bitter yet there's still its scent there. Though I'm not sure if that really was the flower scent or something else, namely insect spray...But, I didn't mind and didn't care.
The flowers, I rather had them planted on ground among the rich soil where they really should be. Some didn't have the chance to bloom fully but had to be cut off its stem to be presented to somebody else - supposingly to make them happy. True enough, the flowers had spread happiness in the world, but they weren't really appreciated still. They were chucked one side when they were done, if you get what I meant. They were merely a symbol in a solid state where humans showed their affection towards another being. However, I still think it's too cruel for the flowers... It's just the spur of a moment happiness and all was gone and forgotten already. Wouldn't it be better if they are just planted in a pot, so that they can continue growing?
Yes, the flowers did play their part well thus I respected them. We are all living things. We had this mutual relationship that we musn't deny. Living things have their own life as we homo sapiens do. Why not some other way when it's Valentine's Day?
In the end, I might just conclude that I'm actually jealous. But, I really hope this was not the source for the above babbling. If it was, I would slap myself. You see, some girls just weren't tired of receiving more and more flowers every single minute - they could managed a bucket full of roses... What's more, some conveyed their dislikes towards me through a rather intentional-not-accidental-practical mean... I was hurt. Rather. My friend suggested that it was really harsh. So I thought. I'm still a being myself. I still have enough sense in myself to not turn into some cold-blooded animal. If I were to turn into such, it would be bad. My state would somehow reflect your ownself. It's not like I bear a grudge with you people. Can't you people see how that this is me, myself and I? This is the way I am. Don't jump to conclusions before you even start to decipher me. By all means, I was always easily bullied all the time. So, how am I supposingly snobbish, aroggant or whatever you might have to say about me??
I really don't understand. Why could I tolerate the others with so much patience and understanding, yet the other side wouldn't seem to open up anytime soon. I'm fed up with this.
Let what will be, be whatever it will be.
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