What's wrong with me?
My mind is all blur. Not sharp or sensitive or whatever... It's just blurry, everything I see now is quite blurry. It doesn't matter to me what is going on. It's like, to me, everything is just the way it is and so let it be. It's nothing.
Like I said last post. I think I'm going insane, anytime... What's more, getting a big blow over my Physics' performance. I felt crushed, totally. And then, it's the start of 1st Mid-Semester tomorrow. Will I do well? I'm seriously worried. I don't think I've did enough.
What's wrong with me?
My mind is so heavy and somehow, loaded with lots of things that I can't seem to throw off. It's too heavy. It's causing me headache. What is it? Why?
What's wrong with her as well? These times, I don't think she's someone that I can trust anymore. The others are definitely better then her. I might be thinking too much, but really, she's starting to give me that kind of impression. Even though she is a nice person, I think she isn't really so instead. She has no patience and is not truthful. Until now, I find that I couldn't believe her. Is it my fault? No, not that I don't want to take the blame but really, I've been tolerating everyone so much that I think I'm not giving myself more. If I irritates her, I'm sorry as I can' help it because I know that I've try my best not to ask her too much things or whatever. Just that, why? She's giving me this feeling now.
I think she's bored with me. That can't be help, I am boring as I'm this person who doesn't really care about anything at all. I'm not interested in anything as well. She complained about people but she eventually get along with them unlike what she told me beforehand. For me, it's like you are a hypocrite. That's really very unappealing to me. You aren't happy with them yet you continued "giving them faces", while I feel rather left alone on the path.
People, I have feelings too.
I do not know how to describe myself much since my vocabulary isn't good enough either. I'm using very limited words and it rarely describe things precisely.
The main point here is - do you care about my feelings? Have it cross your mind that I'm really a being that want attention and care also?
I really needed that. So far, few could do that for me. There's only 3 or 4 to be precise. Am I really someone that difficult to understand? I feel mute most of the time. I do not know what to say anymore. I do not know what to do anymore.
I do not know what I am anymore...
My mind is all blur. Not sharp or sensitive or whatever... It's just blurry, everything I see now is quite blurry. It doesn't matter to me what is going on. It's like, to me, everything is just the way it is and so let it be. It's nothing.
Like I said last post. I think I'm going insane, anytime... What's more, getting a big blow over my Physics' performance. I felt crushed, totally. And then, it's the start of 1st Mid-Semester tomorrow. Will I do well? I'm seriously worried. I don't think I've did enough.
What's wrong with me?
My mind is so heavy and somehow, loaded with lots of things that I can't seem to throw off. It's too heavy. It's causing me headache. What is it? Why?
What's wrong with her as well? These times, I don't think she's someone that I can trust anymore. The others are definitely better then her. I might be thinking too much, but really, she's starting to give me that kind of impression. Even though she is a nice person, I think she isn't really so instead. She has no patience and is not truthful. Until now, I find that I couldn't believe her. Is it my fault? No, not that I don't want to take the blame but really, I've been tolerating everyone so much that I think I'm not giving myself more. If I irritates her, I'm sorry as I can' help it because I know that I've try my best not to ask her too much things or whatever. Just that, why? She's giving me this feeling now.
I think she's bored with me. That can't be help, I am boring as I'm this person who doesn't really care about anything at all. I'm not interested in anything as well. She complained about people but she eventually get along with them unlike what she told me beforehand. For me, it's like you are a hypocrite. That's really very unappealing to me. You aren't happy with them yet you continued "giving them faces", while I feel rather left alone on the path.
People, I have feelings too.
I do not know how to describe myself much since my vocabulary isn't good enough either. I'm using very limited words and it rarely describe things precisely.
The main point here is - do you care about my feelings? Have it cross your mind that I'm really a being that want attention and care also?
I really needed that. So far, few could do that for me. There's only 3 or 4 to be precise. Am I really someone that difficult to understand? I feel mute most of the time. I do not know what to say anymore. I do not know what to do anymore.
I do not know what I am anymore...
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